Goodbye Dress Pants, Hello Backpack
Welcome to the 5 Days of Blogging! I wanted to start off with a more personal post to explain some big changes that are happening in my life right now.
As of this Monday morning I am officially unemployed!
I resigned from my full time job at the law firm where I had been working for the last 2.5 years last week and will be returning to school in January to complete a degree in Graphic Design at George Brown College. The goodbye at work on Friday was so generous, I spent the entire weekend thinking “what did I do?!“. My group of coworkers were wonderful and I will miss seeing their faces every day. However, it had to be done. I could feel more and more frustration boiling in me as months went by, which turned to negativity and I did not want to spend any more time being negative. The Graphic Design program sort of fell into my lap with an open house session I spontaneously attended last year, and since then I haven’t been able to stop thinking about doing it. When I got my acceptance letter, I could feel things falling into place.
Until school starts, I will be focusing on photography, re-watching workshops on Creative Live, remembering what it’s like to live on a student budget once again (pita and peanut butter dinners anyone?), spending time with family and enjoying the peace I am feeling within me. It’s a peace I haven’t felt in a while.
My boss asked me last week what it was about the job that made me so unhappy to want to quit. It wasn’t the job, I told her, I just wanted to refocus my energy into creativity. Focusing on other work, sometimes for 12 hours per day, doesn’t leave you with much energy to take photos, learn new things or write blog posts – as this blog’s activity over the last few months shows. Many days on my walk to work, I would plan what I would be doing if I didn’t have the full-time job. 9-10 am was blogging time, 10-12 was marketing and social media, after lunch was education along with editing and planning sessions. I am so happy to finally be able to live this schedule, even though as I write there is so much drilling happening in my building I can barely focus. Goal for 2013: find an office… or noise-cancelling headphones.
I just want to finish by saying this post is not meant to be a complaint about anything. There’s a fine line between being financially responsible and taking a chance. Having a job allowed me to do many things, like attend the Photo Plus Expo in New York (which I will be summarizing tomorrow) and invest in workshops and gear. I am a huge fan of the saying “Do not spoil what you have now by desiring what you have not. But remember, what you have now was once among the things you hoped for.” It hangs in my room and reminds me there’s always something we want that we don’t have, but what we have now can’t be overlooked.
Here’s to finding peace of mind and heart.